Cheers kidda , lots of work still to do , but I can at least see the light for the first time in a long time , got a meeting at work next week to discuss where it goes next , that should be interesting , there will be things I cannot say in that meeting for various reasons so I’m thinking about penning a letter strictly for personnel’s eyes only , just hope they are professional enough to do with it what I want without any comeback on me ....Great to hear it's helping Paul, the feelings you have will be due to all of the changes you have made. Enjoy them and stick with it Have you tried exercise to help with the sleep problem? I find even the smallest amount can quieten my mind helping me to sleep, when my mind begins to race even a gentle walk in the park can sometimes help.
I remember visiting a place at Seaham once, it was like a ghost town.
Good to hear that you are getting there Alcohol like all drugs can be the cause or the result of depression, best way is to just deal with the problem...But again, easier said than done. Stay positive.another interesting day , been put upto 200mg of sertraline by my GP , went to work for the meeting , and all seemed to go ok , they asked why I was so worried about going back and I told them straight , I said I thought I was going to be sacked , they told me that wasn't the case at all , so it just shows how your own mind can blow things out of all proportion , which is exactly what the psychologist said to me , so now I will be back to work in a couple of weeks , they asked me if I wanted the disciplinary meeting before I went back and said yes , makes sense to start with at least as clean a slate as possible , and after more discussion with the psychologist we have decided the root cause of most of my issues was alcohol , I wasn't quite an alcoholic but maybe close , so , if you think you are on that slippery slope please please please seek help before you end up as far down the path as I have been ......
As well as the North East, I have also lived all over this country and think the same can be said of anywhere if it's poor and with out opportunity, lot's of places just like that down south and including parts of London unfortunately. Too much neglect for too long in the north east as an whole has resulted in things I never thought I would see though, the tories winning seats there was one of them.The north east can be depressing. I know, i grew up there, my family still live there. Very familiar with Spennymoor, Ferryhill, Metal Bridge, Doggie, etc. I’m there helping my elderly parents every 6 weeks or so. There is nothing there, although some areas are seeing massive redevelopment. The new Amazon warehouse near the A1 at junction 61 will provide new jobs. They’re building new housing estates but no facilities.
A lot of the former mining towns and villages are a shadow of their former selves as well, it must all be fairly depressing. You don’t really notice it when you’re younger, you just seem to enjoy life. Then you realise that after school, opportunities are slim.
Good to hear that you are getting there Alcohol like all drugs can be the cause or the result of depression, best way is to just deal with the problem...But again, easier said than done. Stay positive.
As well as the North East, I have also lived all over this country and think the same can be said of anywhere if it's poor and with out opportunity, lot's of places just like that down south and including parts of London unfortunately. Too much neglect for too long in the north east as an whole has resulted in things I never thought I would see though, the tories winning seats there was one of them.
Yeah I have medical cover at work. Ended Sertraline because I was weened off it. Perhaps I shouldn’t have.pretty much echoes my situation , you obviously want help , do you have medical cover at work ? , if you do then you may be able to get some more counselling , it has helped me , no end , why did you stop the sertraline ? , be careful with the cough and sweats , I started like that and ended up in hospital with pneumonia .......
Yes, the two main parties have both badly neglected the north east for all of my life. I do hope things improve quickly up there, but I doubt it.thanks , as for your second part , Ben Houchen is working wonders in the Tees Valley area after years of as you say neglect .....
Good luck, and as Paul said go and get that counselling. Understanding and acceptance are a big part of learning how to deal with this.Currently going through a difficult spell of anxiety and depression. Mainly caused by work, being 37 and feeling like I’ve under achieved (I’m sure we all feel like that) and a bit of Coronavirus worry thrown in for good measure.
most of the stuff is physical and awful tbh. My throat feels closed and I can hyperventilate easy or habitually cough. Get pins and needles in hands and sometimes head, shoulder pain from being so tense, random sweating in public places etc. Then of course I am aware of all this sh*t so I am crap to be around as well, which again I’m aware of and that makes me feel even worse.
I am on day 4 of being off from work. I took about 4 months off a couple of years ago when this happened for the first time, went on sertraline and sought therapy. Things improved but now I realise it was just a band aid. This time I need to try and find some things that are going to work more permanently.
I am going to remain positive. My Wife is amazing and I want to be the best I can be for me and her.