This illnesses you have trouble explaining even to close family or understanding the illness with member's of your family who have these symptoms. I started getting panic attacks in my early 20s and the problem with discussing it for me back then is I could never figure out what started it to begin with . This illness because you can't diagnose it then leads to depression and a downward spiral of not understanding what is wrong with you. This is the frustration of not knowing why and because of the stigma involved with a mental illness not wanting to talk about it. I post this for people in the cycle and although I can't give a cure as after 25 odd years I don't think there is one . After doctors medication and psychotherapists amongst other things There is a life to be had though through expressing your feelings and talking about how you feel . Family close friends is the first go to for just for a Hart to hart and a release of the frustration and dread that you feel even over mundane things. Break the habit , this is the most important thing for killing the beast that holds you back. Small steps like going for a walk by yourself in the sun , or if invited to a event say yes and commit to it even if for only a short time, and build on those small.steps to bring yourself back into the world. Break out of those habits that that stop you doing what you want and beat the crap out of it as its weaker than you as a whole. This is a post for all that suffer in silence and find it difficult to talk about as we have become a silent majority it seems. Start here if you want as we are all anons and then fight the fudgeer as you are in control . Kill the beast.