Cocksure
Well-known Member
Serious question, something happened last evening that has left me quite worried.
I went over to see someone to strike a deal over work they had done for me vs what I had paid them. Neither side had kept very good records of the work/money done/given, so we came to an agreement. During the haggling, the other person kept on saying I'm a Jew (there not) and so I have to get a good deal etc, I didn't like this but didn't say anything. Anyway deal struck, the agreement put in writing and most importantly for me, a handshake is done.
Five minutes later the guy comes back up to me wanting more money because he had forgotten something which really hacked me off, as a result, I started (but didn't say) to think, F'in Jew etc. This reaction has left me quite shaken this morning.
What makes it worse for me is I can't help but think that Judaism is the one true religion and I should convert, but I never will because I'm too scared to for exactly the same reasons that I think it is the "right" religion.
I know that my thoughts were wrong, but am I antisemitic at heart?
I went over to see someone to strike a deal over work they had done for me vs what I had paid them. Neither side had kept very good records of the work/money done/given, so we came to an agreement. During the haggling, the other person kept on saying I'm a Jew (there not) and so I have to get a good deal etc, I didn't like this but didn't say anything. Anyway deal struck, the agreement put in writing and most importantly for me, a handshake is done.
Five minutes later the guy comes back up to me wanting more money because he had forgotten something which really hacked me off, as a result, I started (but didn't say) to think, F'in Jew etc. This reaction has left me quite shaken this morning.
What makes it worse for me is I can't help but think that Judaism is the one true religion and I should convert, but I never will because I'm too scared to for exactly the same reasons that I think it is the "right" religion.
I know that my thoughts were wrong, but am I antisemitic at heart?