Originally posted on another thread, which I have deleted.
I hope that the following goes in some way to help in understanding the human condition ... and in particular mine. At the very least, I hope it goes some way to better communicating what I feel and how I come across, so as to try and limit any bad feelings.
I have been within this community for more than 4 years - and feel it is part of my life, particularly my internet life which at the moment is a considerable chunk of it.
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There is a problem - for some reason people continually miss read what I write.
It's probably down to the fact that we are all human and fallible - I don't always express my ideas in the best way, others don't always read them correctly.
Maybe another of my flaws is to believe that sometimes people are deliberately obtuse and then reacting to it.
It is difficult to work out:
- when it is a genuine mistake because of the way I have worded or miss represented my ideas or thoughts.
- when people are actively seeking to simply have an arguement with me for the sake of it.
- or when some people simply don't get the concepts and ideas.
I will certainly try and future to think about which one it is rather than letting my emotive responses dictate which I assume it is without due consideration.
As I have mentioned before, I am extremely passionate about certain issues - and those passions do run away with me.
It is, in a large part down to the state of my mind. Which at the best of times causes me no end of bother.
I have suffered from depression and many years ago, attempted suicide by overdose... being stomach pumped in hospital is enough to make you want to die even if you are not even suicidal in the first place

I now live in fear of every feeling that way again - I am literally terrified or feeling so dispondant again, that it affects the way I live.
I also suffer from social anxiety disorder and have for over 20 years. It makes my life difficult in the fact that I have to live with an irrational voice screaming at me telling me I am going to die from embarassment.
Having a phobic reaction to even attempting to ask a woman out for a date, or standing in a shop for 10 minutes pretending you were looking for something after going in by mistake and are terrified that people will think you are an idiot.
.... it also leads me to hate to be missunderstood to a compulsive level. Which may go some way to explaining the soap box preaching when it comes to feeling like I have been miss represented.
I rationally know that I can be a pain in the bum - but I have a compulsion and phobia about being seen as a bad person at least when it is based on an incorrect reading of something I meant.
I am extremely self critical - and spend far too long to be healthy examining my own morality
You may or may not have noticed that I only comment on subjects that I have either experience of or researched to some length - my fear of being missrepresented or sounding stupid stops me commenting on topics I don't understand. ( I may be deluded in the level of expertise in a particular subject - but thats a different issue

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I have in my life been proven wrong on mainy things - it is always going to be the case. I accept that I am constantly learning and try to take onboard any new ideas that have been shown to be more correct than my own.
The following comments are to try and clarify posts I have made where their have been bad feelings within the community.
I will try and make this as clear as possible:
I only consider comments that contain no information evidence or anything else other than simple disagreement as ignorance - and only when they seem to contain flippent insults.
Mainly because they often only contain insult and nothing else.
The converstation goes like this:
person A: The new law is terrible, it affects business practices and my income.
person B: the law is fine
person A: why ?
person B: because only greedy people care about it and it doesn't affect me
Person A: *** reasoned arguement *****
person B: you are arrogant and wrong.
^ that is what I am reacting to.
Conversation is fine, posting basic opinion is fine, you can say you don't agree or what ever you want.
I go on the defencive because time after time - posters have responded in an insulting way without bothering.
I got fed up with that and made a statement to say I did not consider that ' valid '
Everyone then wants a pop at me for being a fascist, sounding like a nazi, arrogance etc.
It is funny that they can hold aggressive opinions and spout hatred of this and that quite often .... yet I am the bad man.
Maybe I am arrogant, and I know the way I commincate some of my ideas are not the most readable or best approach.
But a serious number of people need to stand back and consider the blatant hypocrisy evident in their attempts to pilarise me.
.... but it seems that even pointing that no one is perfect, accepting some of my own weaknesses and trying to show certain hypocrisies labels me a bad guy ..... because most people certainly won't accept that they might not be the perfect, honest and admired people they seem to feel they are.
A more accurate example of some of what I have mentioned is as follows:
We were discussing the distatest full subject of paedphiles and the possibility of a new law / making the sex offenders register public.
Myself and a few others pointed out that this would be a bad idea based on a considerable amount of research carried out by various organisations including National childrens societies and respected authorities.
They stated that publishing names and address of sex offenders would lead to greater problems in society and have a negative impact on the protection of innocent children - as well as a other problems within society.
We tried to argue the point with this evidence, but many of us got called ' paedophile supporters ' by other posters .... which of course made people like me quite upset and prone to post more evidence.
That and similar incidents led to me gaining the reputation as ' Mr no it all, thinks he is always right '... and getting the perception of arrogance - because of the way I reacted to it.
There often are issues when most of us have a basic view of how things work - yet it with some esoteric knowledge, others know that it does not actually work that way.
The big problem with esoteric knowledge, is that it requires time and effort to get to grips with ... and is beyond many of us .... I try my hardest to understand quantum physics .. but I fall way short.
Yet I have to accept that it can and is proven that newtonian physics does not work for every situation in the universe ... but the majority of us still think it does and make decisions and opinions based on that. We all need to understand that we have limits.
I passionately care about what happens to humanity ( too much so with regards to fitting in and getting on in society ) - I see suffering around me each day. I find it increasingly hard to live with myself and this world when I see things that could be fixed but due what I see as silly rules or daft ideas causing pain and death around the world.
Feeling that way obviously affects the way I represent myself .... so appolgies to those to whom it causes offence. I am in the end, only human.